At one time I thought I could fix myself
Spent 2 1/2 years with my therapist
Worked on many things
Like most of what I've done I was not thorough enough
Here recently I thought I could repair my marriage, I really did
It's that unrealistic mindset that takes me away from what's in front of me
Like the perfect wife and family
Lost without any idea why I put us there
I have looked in the rear view and thought at times
When the mother of my child broke our hearts
I never recovered and carried anger forward in my life
I was so concerned with my sons' recovery, I passed on mine
Here I am today, as broken as I was 28 years ago
A broken engine repaired with broken parts
Never running properly just waiting for my next patch job
Stopping the leaks all over my body
I don't comprehend the state I'm in
I don't understand Why I broke your heart
I won't ever forget the feeling inside
When you won't take my calls or don't want to be near me
So I try to attack every day
With the thought of tomorrow being a day
which provides me answers and some clarity
To how I got here and how do I move forward?
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