Last night was a very lonely night
I was amongst family yet felt all alone
A state of depression kicked in hard
And I had such an enjoyable day
Funny thing depression
When it hits it really comes hard
No warning , no alarm bells
Just that sinking feeling that shit aint right
Slept well, had a few dreams
The unrealistic dreams that bring her back
Well at least the nightmares are staying away
Maybe that's when I wake up and realize it was a dream
I really need to stop thinking about what I have lost
It's gone and I can't bring her back
I do have real goodness in my life
In typical fashion ,it Isn't enough, wanting more is my middle name
That very trait has killed my dreams, stunted any growth towards healing
Time will naturally take care of most things
The answers will come and I would have accepted them
Tom Petty said "the waiting is the hardest part"
The day brings a breakfast trip with Sister
Maybe more pictures later on in the day
Should be bright a crisp out today
But a good photo day waiting in the wings
As I said the brain plays tricks on me
Making me think I don't deserve this fate I've created
Well I do and I've accepted my wrong-doings
And am Paying the bill for my services
I just want a civil understanding
Nothing less, nothing more
A good felling that I can make contact
And that me reaching out won't be ignored
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