I'm having an odd feeling right now
It's not a sadness, anger or anything negative
I feel alone right now, not lonely but afraid
Fears of being alone in a room full of people
I don't want to die alone
I don't want to live a loveless life
My fears are based on being dependent so long
To the same person for a long time
It's my reality to be be so needy
Taken many things for granted for too long
Now that my comfort of being loved is gone
I need to convince myself I will go on
I want to be a productive man
I want to be loved again
I can do all of the right things
But only for my chosen love
The feeling of being alone scares me
I'm so far from being able to face my new reality
The feeling of loss has me on the ground
Picking myself up is harder than I ever imagined
This dependency issue will always rear its vicious head
My support system has gone to a better place
Worry free and the chance to grow
Not feeling like a caregiver and a paycheck anymore
I live a blessed life but it's hard to feel today
Maybe tomorrow will bring me a better appreciation
I'm thankful for all that was given to me
I'm so sorry that I had to make it end
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