Happy Anniversary Terria

Today brings me my tenth anniversary to my sweet Terria Lynn. Just 10 years ago almost to the minute we were married in a little Chapel in Santa Paula with 30 other close family and friends to bear witness to the best day of my grown up life.  The ceremony was done in Greg and Terria style with very little glitz and glamour just our motorcycles, our riding gear and the the love we would live and grow with to this very day. The ceremony was simple and lasted less than 10 minutes, we walked down the hall and off to waiting motorcycles to head back home to the clubhouse where a simple ceremonial reception was held.

The day some 25 years ago I met Terria while I was working at the Black Angus in Ventura, she was with friends and I was working in the bar that night and approached her to talk. After she wittingly blew me off I was speechless and proceeded on with my night. As they left for the evening i drew up the courage to ask her what she was doing after I got off work , she replied nothing,I asked if she wanted to meet and talk at 2am and she said Sure...why not?

I picked her up at her mom's house where she was down from college to witness the birth of her first Niece Karina and we talked til 6 am at which time she had to go as she had a flight to take her back to Nebraska later that morning. After months of correspondence she eventually moved into the area where she taught parochial school in the Valley, I would visit and talk on the phone and we had a very non committal relationship and were working on figuring out our role. During that time frame i was broken up with Tracy, the mother of Brandon, seems like we spent more time off than on in our relationship and fathered a Boy with her.

So one day  decided to get back with Tracy and eventually asked her to marry me, she did ,we were and then I made the call to Terria to let her know that I had tried to do the right thing by marrying Tracy and didn't even bother to tell her. she picked up the phone and had heard through mutual friends that  was married and she heard me out, her parting words were" Fuck You" Rightly so, as Terria never did anything but good things for me and with me.

Almost 12 years passed and not hearing or seeing my Terria , was separated from Tracy and living with my Son Brandon who was 12 years old by now, I married Tracy when he was 3 1/2 and was a, as I said separated more than together with her. by this time Tracy had moved away and left me with my son to raise and enjoy, no fight , no fuss just handed over ..thank you very much Tracy! THe gift of my boy was the best thing she ever did. so she moved to Washington state and married the guy she cheated on me with, Good times, and thank you Paul for taking over payments!

So one evening ,October 9,1997,I get a call while living in Ventura with Brandon, the phone was a very familiar voice and I knew who it was, It was Terria who was in the area soon and wanted to see how I was doing, I spoke to her for awhile and we parted and said to get in touch when she came to visit her mom. At the Time I was a committed relationship of over 2 years with my co-worker Gina yeah bad idea but what 's dumbass to do.   Time went on and around Christmas time she called and left a message saying she was in town and wanted to know if I wanted to have dinner with her, I said sure, Gina was not very happy and I didn't care, a married woman with a man in a relationship was safe enough. All went well and we parted our ways,hoping to stay in touch sometime soon.

Just one week later i go to work and had been having issues in my relationship with Gina, just the constant nagging and demeanor busting of my chops! I had finally had enough and called it quits with her that day and shortly after received a call from Terria at work sharing with me that she had just asked for a divorce from her abusive husband and had been lying to herself as I had been about our happiness in our relationships. We were long lost friends who at last freed ourselves of the burdens of the lies!

we met a week or so later to talk about the breakup, as friends we were there for each other and tried to help one another in getting through our  issues with our soon to be ex's. We had no intentions of leaving our relationships they just ended at almost the same exact time. We proceeded cautiously as friends and then started to see more of each other, she living 90 minutes away wesaw each other when we could. nearing summertime we were introduced to each others kids , Terria had met Brandon when he was 6 months old but we met the boys and went to the park and just hung out and watched them do their thing. Braz was 6 and Ty was 5, Brandon was 12 and we walked slowly towards a real relationship

Eventually we became a couple and she moved here to the area , we rented a house in Ventura and she got a job teaching in Santa Paula. We lived together for 3 years and finally ,10 years ago today, we tied the knot and have moved onward. We over came her divorce, my departure away from my marriage last May and have gone through rigorous efforts to regain the trust and places we were before, we have surpassed that mark and I am still trying to forgive myself for putting her through what I did last year. No Rhyme or reason just moving away from all that was perfect, and through therapy understand myself and  my mistakes a little better these days!

Terria has been an amazing wife, mother and friend to all of us, we are all so blessed to have her in our lives, she has held a broken man together and helped put me back together again. we have traveled far and wide but never truly apart from each other even through last springs debacle I was blessed with her strength and for her to take me back and accept the love that I still have to give shows how amazing she truly is.  Today is a very special day , a day that I will share with the ones that I love tonight, quiet, simple and so much of what we do these day...together. Thank you Terria ,o'wife of mine for giving me the best gift ever, the second chance to get it right...much Love, Greg!

Tomorrow

In a few hours it will be my 10 year anniversary with Sweet Terria, I've been through heaven and hell with her , some at my hands , other things at the hands of life and the old ex, but whatever the case may be it is a joyous occasion to be alive and celebrate the love and life of being married to the most incredible woman I have ever known. I will write a more in depth piece and chronicle the journeys and triumphs of our lives together. 25 years of knowing this woman have brought me so much joy, I hope at the end of this rainbow she can say the same...Goodnight!

Appreciative and Forever Looking Onward

Monday is nearly down and the rest of week seems to be within  reach for me tonight. The hamstring/Sciatic nerve still flaring up but am used to the discomfort if not pain, thankfully I'm not a pussy when it comes to pain and soldier through the aches and am able to limp to work and then to the gym. The past 2 days I have spent both in the gym and at the pool and whirlpool trying to get something to give and snap back into place, no luck yet and a trip to the chiro is next!

Today Ty left east ward towards Missouri with Mandy and the progress is apparently rather slow, with no AC and very little common sense,I wish them both more luck than they might be capable of mustering on their own. Youth, such a fickle bastard it is and I hope the life lessons come at a reasonable price and don't bankrupt my boy's wherewithal and resolve! But come what may we sit back and wait for the shoes to drop and the voice of reality and reason to echo loudly and clear.

Tonight after the gym and the pool I came home and baked a couple of cakes, one regular size and one mini chocolate ganache cake for a going away for office mare Delores, and the other for friends in  the outer office in my building. All done and the cleanup was long and arduous this evening, seemingly more to clean and make an even larger mess than normal so took awhile to get my shit straight and all back where it needs to go in a clean manner...dammit I hate cleaning up after I cook or bake...ughhh.

Tomorrow looking forward to a full staff and less time up front answering phones and playing secretary but its all part of the gig and I really shouldn't complain too much since I do have a great job and they compensate me well for doing what little I do. Thinking about Ty and Braz away on their own away from home and doing their own thing so far away. Braz out on mission and we await the call that he's ok after each weekly mission, not easy at times but we manage with love and admiration and respect for one another each and every day. Knowing that this Thursday will be 10 year anniversary for us is a remarkable thing , so quickly does our life move along and I will touch upon that in a day or so. Thanks to Terria for being Terria and as I Said will do a little piece on the life and growth of our relationship as it stands and where it has progressed from, very great place to be i a marriage that has been so many places and has so much more ground to cover. I will not stop trying to improve upon the most important thing in my life, my wife and my kids and the greatest family a person could ever have...good times, Good night

Farewell To Ty!!!!

Ready to leave the workplace today at 2 pm , i have a few things that need to be tightened up before we entertain family tonight for the Ty going away/Graduation Party at the house. Have some last minute cleaning and tidying up around the yard and house so it will be set and ready for the family visit tonight. So much to do and Terria has done most of it all by herself with very little assistance from me, but i am trying to catch up with her today. Heading to the gym for a quick workout, come home and  do the work around the house then shower and put some shorts on and ready myself to see the family. My knucklehead mom called this morning asking if she was invited and i laughed at her and said"No shit" of course  and asked her if she was serious about that!  Other than that should a good time and a decent farewell to the young dingleberry we call Ty.

Very pleased with the concrete work the guys did yesterday, really makes the yard look bigger and so happy we went with concrete instead of rock! Amazingly they were in at 7 am , started working and were done digging up and forming and pouring 6.5 yards of concrete by 12. they were funny and hung out and drank some Beer i had in the fridge from Saturday when I had some of the crew over for food and drink.

So much to do this summer, have so much on my to do list for the house and yet might not be able to complete it all, the holiday coming up and the Dodger game with Tim and Ape on 4th of July, then we head to the midwest for our summer Baseball trip and other things in the adjoining areas! Yes, we will be quite busy and hopefully my to do list will be set up and checked off before Terrias new school year starts. Well I'm changing into gym clothes and heading Bally's way then home to start my list of to do's for the day. My blessing to my family and friends and all of my sick and recovering folks out there and my best wishes to Braz and Nikki in Afghan today out on mission, and a safe return of all of the troops really soon.

Staff Meeting Was Tame

The morning meeting was much tamer than I was hoping and i was really and truly hoping for an ass kicking by Peter! The usual business was handled with some minor and not so minor changes coming down the pike in the future. Then the bomb drops and he says a few things that the daydream believers don't want to hear and feel they are entitled to , forgetting that this is a work place and a job and not a daycare center for the masses. So of course the thinned skinned get butthurt and the rest of us laugh at them !

Bringing your 21 year old daughter to work and hanging out allday is not acceptable in any workplace in the world, but some think it's ok for them. I don't have a problem but would never think to being my older kids to work just to hang out, they all have jobs or fulltime school and are too busy to do so, but if they weren't they'd be looking for a job or looking to do something productive besides having a day off everyday! We all have our differences but common sense and knowing protocol is not that difficult. The jobs we have are very simple and we get paid way too much to do what we do on a daily basis. So let em be Ass cracked and lets get back to the business of providing world class customer service to our clients, the reasons we have a job in the first place!!!

So that being said we move on to the rest of the day and the jobs at hand. the work will change in 2014 when we no longer have as many properties to manage and might be moved to a different portion of Housing the military personnel. so we wait and see and hope that through attrition that nobody loses their jobs in the grand scheme of things.  Feeling a little better today with the Sciatic thing going on in my ass, but still takes a few minutes to work the tinge out of it and is quite sore . can still work it out at the gym and feels better, until I sit down and cool off that is then the stiffness kicks in and it becomes an ongoing bear to work out the kinks again. But i truly do feel it is better than yesterday and maybe it was a bad as it was going to get and the upward curve is in effect??? Hope so anyway, very annoying and very time consuming to stretch out after every elongated sit down session. Another beautiful day in Cali is coming to a close , the workday has a few hours left and I look forward to the gym and the sweat of it all and cannot wait to get my concrete project done and over tomorrow and be ready for Ty's going away gathering at the house. Once again good times continue in My life and in my world, working hard to improve upon that which is already pretty damn incredible, so much easier when i have such an incredibly amazing partner to assist me through each and every day, hoping that I do the same for you too Honey???

Ass On Fire!

My Aching ass is killing me, No not a Homosexual tendency joke just the way it is. But what's a fool to do when the Sciatic nerve flares up, had torn cartiledge in both knees, now just one and never had so much discomfort in all my life but  man up and ice it up and work it out and still nothing but the dull tinge and sharp pains at times. Taking about 15 -20 steps and its bearable but getting up and starting out it hurts like a mother fucker. OK enough about that crap and as I said man up already.

Tomorrow I look forward to a tumultuous staff meeting where feelings will get hurt I am almost sure. The wick has been negatively burning at both ends and the boss aint having it anymore. Too many folks not where they need to be when they need to be there and the extended lunches have caught up to the office and I foresee some changes after tomorrow in the way things are done, ranging from the lunch periods and the time they are taken to the whereabouts of certain employees throughout the day. We are due for an ass whipping by the boss and we shall all stand up and accept the fact that we have slacked off for too long now as a group.

Inching ever nearer to the 4th of July and a Dodger game with family and followed by the middle of the months jaunt to Chicago and Detroit and some cool places in between. Have a concrete project slated for Wednesday and a room redo for the summertime, after that stay home and save money that has been flying out the window more frequently than normal, what with graduations and going away parties and the usual summertime festivities of sunshine in So Cal are more apt to be out spending dough.

So here we are tomorrow the first day of summer, Terria out od school and so much going on with Braz in Afghanistan and Ty leaving for Missouri , Brandon going to school fulltime and possibly looking at enlisting in the Army this time next year hopefully with a degree and entering officers candiate school, we shall see what happens.Miss the boys as they were when they were younger and all at home with us for the laughs and fun of the everyday noise, but we move forward and know that the growth of our kids includes them moving away and doing their own thing away from us as parents. God Bless them all and hope that we had some impact on their decision man king process, sometimes we wonder but trust in the entire parenting process which never ends, just gets quieter is all! Good Times and better days ahead!

Workday Humpday Wednesday

Wednesday is here and humpday wreaks of the end of the week for me, Working tomorrow and off this Friday for a nice respite to do whatever I want to do. Terria will be off Friday and we have nothig on the Docket but hanging out and going to the gym. Tonight I have brother date night with Big Brother Richard at Bandits in Camarillo for dinner and brother spewing, Baseball, Basketball , how we are so Happy that Lebron got his ass handed to him by the Dirkster From Dallas...hahaha! So we will eat a good healthy dinner and have an even healthier conversation with my big brother!

The workday is same as it always is, slow and low and the usual suspects serving as useless as ever. Missing my Lollipop kid today she's in LA doing a recheck from her recent surgery and I'm sitting up front solo again. the 1020 and 11 lunch takers are like clockwork and i won't take lunch til 1215-1230. Don't know how they take such early lunched, the rest of the day just drags on when they do that, not as if they're where they are supposed to be or doing what the are supposed to do when they are but you get the picture, a little disenchantment on my part and the Boss has a meeting scheduled to discuss these type of things. so we as an office do a good job but the strengths are few and the weak links are plenty and the constant overcompensation on one side of the house to compliment the other side is becoming more like the bullshit that it is!

 It does not affect my work or my job at all but the main point of taking advantage of a person and job that is so easy and get overpaid to do is somehow troubling to me. The use and abuse of the situation we have is coming to a boiling point with a less tolerant Boss Peter who sees and is tiring of the treatment that he receives and the lack of respect that is given As a result of his laid back approach. But that being said we all have a job to do and a place to be here at work, if we choose not to be there and not do what we get paid to do then reprimands are in order. Sad thing is the lack of accountability will make some butt hurt and start pointing fingers instead of being thankful for the jobs that they have and the knowledge of having it so easy when people in the real world bust their asses to make far less money and work 3 times harder to make it...just pisses me off. I do not work hard, but when i do have works it gets done and I am always available and in the right place to do so. For instance, right now I sit up front manning the phones, we have 4 people all at lunch with no regards for  front desk coverage, some take lunch at the same time everyday regardless of customer load , their time comes and they are off. so i sit, the lone man in the office , my boss in back doing his usual emails and calls and catching up on stuff and I Am here to take the burden off the office and will get lunch after i know people are back from their hour and a half lunches and whatever else they are doing. I will process to the local eatery for a quick lunch and make it back in less than the allotted hour, come back, check the front to make sure that the customers are all taken care of and then process where needed, no direction, no orders just make sure that the office is properly covered! I guess there's a reason why i received a cash bonus in my last check for the service award that me and another coworker received! So the day is nearly half over, i await lunch as breakfast was somehow skipped this morning and i proceed on to the front station that I now cover! Look forward to seeing my big brother then coming home to my honey!!! good times!

The Joys Of Wisdom

Each and every day I rise , shake out the cobwebs in my eyes and am so very thankful for the life that I have arisen to! So damn blessed to be at peace with most everything in my world and so happy as to where I'm at. I have personally been granted ,or blessed with some intelligence, wherewith all and coping skills to get through the daily push of everyday. This being said i always seem to learn something new and exciting everytime the sun comes up, which is no way of saying I'm a dumbass on rainy day, figure of speech is all! I get up, go to work then the gym afterwork and the gym on weekends. At the gym i am diligent about getting in and getting out and putting in my 45 minutes to an hour on the machines and then bolt out the door onto living the aforementioned life I spoke of earlier.

 At the gym there are a couple of older guys who work out at Bally's and have always been very nice and very friendly. I met Johnny 2 years ago via Ruben the stutterer who always wanted to be a gangster but couldn't, now he just talks about the good old days that never were, but he introduced me to who he calls "The Godfather", all in his Gangster mantra, so i bought into it for conversations sake. Johnny is an old school badass who at 63 years old still works out and has the physique of a 38 year old man in shape. He is a very business oriented man who is recently retired and stays busy buying storage lots at auctions and re-sells it all at a profit. A very nice man who rarely talks about his past unless you ask him. He does impart some good information and some knowledge that isn't always common in our conversations at the gym. He shares allot of good stories of the old days and how he made so many mistakes and see's his younger family making worse mistakes than he made and doesn't know when it will end. He is a wealth of street knowledge and common sense and i do enjoy his company and conversation. but i know he will add 20 minutes to my workout and that's ok at times. I like Johnny, don't even know his last name  but i like the man.

There is another man who is both similar and very dissimilar than Johnny who also works out at the Gym. He is 77 year old Sheldon, an gray haired, barrel chested strong man who is always the happiest and most friendly guy at the gym. says hello to everybody and like Johnny is fit beyond his years and always glad to see the next guy, even if I'm that next guy. Sheldon calls me billboard because he say's they can advertise on my wide back and always has some very nice things to say to me. His full of life demeanor and his vast knowledge of life and living are a culmination of 77 years of living a good life and treating his friends and family as if they really matter. He is a well educated man who taught at UC Davis and many high schools in the land, he has a wisdom about him from a historical sense and has always had the answer to my questions, he unlike Johnny is very articulate and very keen about social injustices and the worlds affairs. A good conversation is always at hand and I do enjoy the wisdom that both Johnny and Sheldon bring everytime we speak.

 I do enjoy living and learning new things and different perspectives , the vast majority of people at the gym are real simple people and not all that interesting, but the few guys that take time out to talk to me some of which i have not listed make the at times difficult trek to the gym a bit more enjoyable and helps break the monotony of doing the same routine and the same  machines and people in the areas of the gym that i frequent the most. All said, the growth that ensues is for me is almost a necessity , the fact that I've always stressed living and learning and growing emotionally, spiritually and even in a worldly sense to not become stagnant and realizing that there is so much knowledge and wisdom outside of our doors  and we should embrace the changes are are waiting to improve us on a minute by minute basis. To stop growing as people is to start dying as a person, like a relationship that gets too comfortable is very apt to become stale and grow apart, these things happen to us individually and at times even a depressed state of forgetting how to grow ,or desiring change in our lives which for me will never occur if i have anything to say about it all!

It is a Monday and originally i didn't want to come to work, even showed up late, wanted to stay in bed with my wife since she's done with teaching til next fall. But I am here at work and able to feel better about the day and know that the gym will make me feel better after work and that the night with my wife will even make it all better. A very nice sunny day here in southern Cal today and can't wait to enjoy a healthy lunch somewhere and get away for an hour. The day is really good so far and i cannot wait til day's end

Good To Be Happy

Closing out a good weekend with a nice quiet evening with Terria, relax and made some really interesting if not tasty deep fried coconut friend chicken with homemade mashed potatoes, with butter and mayo inside, so bad for you but so good,oh yeah and some veggies to even out the playing field a bit. School is out for Terria and I get to go back to work tomorrow, had a friend cancel Golf with me tomorrow so I will practice and go to the gym afterwards. Looking forward to the summertime of riding the motorcycle and enjoying the southern california weather that we pay such high land costs to enjoy! I'm starting a new regiment at the gym tomorrow and try to lower the carb i take and try to drop 20 lbs before our Chicago trip next month so I can eat a little more when we are there and not feel so bad about it all. Still have the yard project to finish and the room project ,but had a set back with the plumbing this past weekend and by daytime boss who is also my plumber so he came out twice to re route an to snake and re do some stuff for me today as a matter of fact! Very nice to have him come out to essentially do it for half price of a plumber out in town,kudos Mr. Peter Faulk, my new hero for sure, no more trips to the 76 station to use the restroom at night...damn that sucked a bit.So anyway all of the grads are done and we are embarking on the plans we have for a productive and active summer. Work is going well and I am  ready for the new workweek, even moreso since it is my short week and I'm off Friday.This time last year we were coming home from St Louis after attending Braz's graduation at Ft. Leonardwood,this year he is in Afghanistan taking fire from the Taliban,WOW, the boy has grown up do much and we are so proud of him and will pray for his, and his platoon's safety on a daily basis. Congrats to the Dallas Mavericks for kicking Miami's ass and I feel good about that for sure!!!! Yes , we are really looking onward to a good summer and a great fall and holiday season upcoming.Looking forward to better health and better happiness and fitness that will enable us to prosper and be around so much longer. MY Ducati awaits my ass to ride it...... LOve to all and Happiness to anybody that touches my circle. Good to be so happy and be so vibrant with positive thoughts and the people that love me and I love them all back

Foster The People- "Houdini" (Live at KROQ)

I obviously love this band, even moreso live and acoustic

Foster The People- Pumped Up Kicks (Live at KROQ)

WOW!!!! best version yet

987FM Penthouse - Foster The People: Waste (acoustic)

Great version of a great song! Very Nice!!!!

Forward and Onward "I Am Who I Am"

Friday morning is upon me and I sit here at front wondering what the weekend will bring us in the way of fun and frolic? a very quick workweek and the day brings me a Rio Mesa HS graduation of my little Niece Kristen. Leaving work at 1 pm for the 2 pm festivities. Kind of stuck whether or not to finish up my front yard project or give the work to a coworker who needs the money ? Depending on how i feel i might just knock it out myself  but shall see what the weekend has in store for Terria and I!

Feeling pretty good today and looking forward to better things ahead in regards to the summertime and enjoying my time with Terria to meet for lunches and take long weekends together with no plans or no responsibilities to anybody but ourselves these days. Sounding a bit selfish but knowing the sacrifice we have made to support our boys and help them to get their feet out the door is part of the rearing process..as if to say,"get your rears out of here" ...not really, we love our boys and miss our boys the way they were but growth and life takes over and they must grow right along and progress and move on with that growth!!!

So much to talk about and to write about these days , I am trying to get my reading all caught up and somehow can't get behind anything right now. The thought of reading does not appeal to me but I can write anytime and feel better about that because it's mine and i own this site and the thoughts that go along with it on a daily basis. Yeah, this site and my other Gregasaurus site are a true salvation to my psyche, trust me the ability to share and vent the feeling and emotions on a place that I call my own Home is incredibly powerful! I put so much credence on these 2 sites as they are the main outlets, along with my wife to be able to express and share whatever is on my mind in a way that i don't care if i offend or say the wrong thing, because it's mine to use and abuse the way I want to, people who read this and know me , know that that is Greg, no better , no worse, just Greg

Made a quick  trip to Facebook for a real quick visit to say hello to the folks over in dreamland. For some reason just can't get behind the premise of Facebook, to me it's a reality show with bad players in it and who gives a fuck how your kids are doing???? But we live in a quick fix dream works society where folks think they need to belong to some type of fraternity to belong to the human race. My ass don't operate that way and i make my own way in the grand scheme of things. But i do have some good people that i have reunited with over there and for that it was a good thing while I was there but I as Greg have to evolve and move on constantly otherwise the boredom makes me Die a little everyday and that ain't where I'm at these days

Moving onward and continually forward I will continue to journal my thoughts and my peaves and be in my own little world that i choose to make very small these days! The joys of my life are many and the people I enjoy them with a very few, by choice and design I have made myself a very private person and have sought to fix the broken pieces of Greg and to refine the good pieces and continually grow in a positive manner to those in my life and to anybody who I come in contact with. "The Golden Rule" is where I sit and the way that I try to treat those around me and those who come in contact with the sometimes ASS and always straight shooter. I am Greg Duran and I am the Gregasaurus for these reasons! Good Days and Good times!

Frank Schaeffer "My Spiritual Guru"

This is the current book that I am reading by Frank Schaeffer, This will be the 4th Schaeffer book that I have read and he is my favorite author by far.  Schaeffer is not only the reason I came back to Christianity but the reason I now follow the political scene and all it's nuances and negativity's. But the best and most important reason is the ethical spin on things and his interpretation of the bible which very much mirrors my beliefs on the good book. As he says worship our God , not the book, live by the golden Rule and be a good person. We should not judge ourselves but be judged by those who love us the most, we are only as good as the interpretation of the people we are closest to. If we think we are good but our wife and our kids think otherwise, based on how we treat them and the world which surrounds them, then we are in fact less than we thought we were and in dire need of re-evaluating the person that we are and have become. Schaeffer has also taught me many things about life and things beyond religion, based on his life and his upbringing in an uptight religious right lifestyle where his father Francis Schaeffer founded the original Far Right evangelical movement which help produce Falwell and Billy Graham and a few others of note, but those are the big 2 that Francis helped create and thus we have the Sarah Palins of the world today with their hypocritical lives and preaching under the guise of Religious righteousness. Frank Schaeffer was smartewr and better than that he removed himself from the riches and the phony lifestyle of becomming a follower of  his father and the Religious right and moved away to a more progressive, slightly left winged believer where he sought out peoples happiness instead of people being forced to live miserably by the Bible's flawed scriptures and becoming the judgemental monsters that the Far right have become. I admire his candor and his true religious beliefs, when he says there are days when he feel agnostic, we all do at times feel lie where was god at this point in time and why didn't God stop a certain tragedy. but the strength of faith allows us believe and to not believe as we see fit! I am a huge fan of Schaeffer and all of his writings and his speakings of goodness and the realities that he lives in , especially being brought up in a surreal world of make believe and rose above that to become bigger and better than his Father. So i get back to my book and enjoy the written word by my spiritual Guru Frank Schaeffer

Apprehensive Feelings!(written 5-17-11)

Feeling a little strange today after the visit with my mom last night. Knowing that she was in pain and watching her be so uncomfortable made me really uneasy, I stayed very little in her room and just paced the halls and tried to take my mind off of it all. Terria and April were very good and do better with this type of thing than I do by miles and miles. Feeling a bit sad that my relationship with my mother being strained as it is always has been and that I feel bad for not trying harder to be a better son and a more compassionate person in regards to her and our relationship. But seeing her in pain and knowing the helpless feeling of being in a Hospital and waiting for help for everything is a very bad position to be in. It really hit me when they brought my Mom's dinner tray in and I looked under the cover to see what they had brought her, the sights and smell of the Food made me ill and had me walking down the hall in a second. Not trying to look back at my hospital stay a few years back but it really brought it all back full circle, although this time i wish it was me instead of my mom in there today. Always feeling that i handle this type of thing better if it's me as opposed to somebody I love, but the realities of it all are what they are...it's not me in there it's my mom!!! So the long road ahead in rehab and re training herself to use the nee and get to a place where she can be good enough to have the other knee replaced is up and on deck. Terria and i will meet at the gym  and then head to Michaels for therapy and then off to the Hospital to visit my Mom again. The day is a beauty here in The Nard and feeling really refreshed after  a full nights rest, catching up from the previous night of very little if any sleep at all!I hope that my mom is well and the pains subside quickly, i and Terria are concerned and for my own selfish reasons cannot wait tilthe end of the month and our Trip to salt Lake city to watch our Superbike races and enjoy the beautiful city of SLC and all it's grandeur. Having an ok day so far and knowing that it will get better as the minutes tick away. Good times await us all, weed out the negative and pull from the pool of goodness that we call our own!

Sweet Therapeutic Life

Once again I ventured out in the world of Blogdom, a peek at what the rest of the Blogosphere deems as interesting and provocative. Much to my chagrin I found nothing but family hour and baby pictures, some holy rollers spreading the news of God and the mens club meetings. all cool stuff but so very tame and so very lackluster to my palate. I love the fact that I can venture to the halls of the internet and view what other people place their stock in, the family, the wife , the children , the vacations, all good stuff and all part of our daily culture. We just spread that news a little differently.

This blog is by no means about ME, it's about my feelings and my likes and dislikes with the world and myself. always been one to take full accountability for my actions and reactions in life and here I am spewing my nonsense to the world and relinquishing my privacy, all in the name of therapeutic release. This place and my other site really allow me to do what i do best, write and express a given feeling or emotion, through he spoken work or keyboard stroke I love me some conversation, even if with myself.

The days ahead bring about excitement and joy, we have so much to look forward to and to be thankful for at the same time. where We are as a family in a good place, regardless of the changes that have occurred  with the boys being out on their own and doing their own thing,it is a growing a learning experience as a parent, we have to cut the ties and let the kids go and learn for themselves that this world will bite you in the ass if you are ill prepared to handle its' evil ways and tendencies. So we allow the kids to fly allow because they are doing it with or without our permission, being 18 and all has it's advantages for both parent and for child.

So we embark on another summer here real soon, this time last year we were in Missouri at Ft. Leonardwood celebrating our Boy Braz's boot camp graduation. This year will take us to Chicago , Detroit and to parts in between as we embark on another Vacation of Terria and i and enjoying these years with no kids to worry about.  Terria will be finished with teaching her 24th year (I think that's the #)? on Friday and then we have some things to do around the house, Ripping out the sod as we speak to incorporate an Arizona type yard with Gravel , no mowing and no fucking gophers to ruin my day and my once pristine Lawn.  The exterior of the house will get painted this summer as will our bedroom and the carpet replacement. so therer will be things to do and things to play with as well!

So today is a day where we get to install a drain from the kitchen and washer to the main sewer line, my boss is a licensed plumber and said he could do it in less than an hour , so we will leave here at 1 and head to Home depot and get the parts and pipes and fittings that we need and will be set to install the much need drain, no more drain hose for ther washing machine and all will be good, for less than $100 hes says , so good deal and good times, one day at a time , and one project almost done the next one on deck. good days in Saurusland

June 7 Celebration

It's a beautiful southern California Tuesday morning here at work, sun shining and another 70 degree day in the forecast! All is well in My world and seriously contemplating getting through the yard project quickly and onto the summertime where Terria will be off for the summer and can meet me for lunch and start to plan weekend excursions away from the Nard. But first things first we must get through the weeks end and the graduations that we must attend and Terria's last school day is this Friday. Move to the summertime the trips are planned and the rides are planned and all is in sequence to come to fruition.

Sitting here at my desk  I have very little to do today, or tomorrow or any day soon to tell you the truth but WOW! how lucky am I do do what i do and make what I make doing what I really don't do anymore?  The world is in a good place, or my world is in a good place, the actual world is in a shitload of trouble and scandal after scandal seems to permeate the news these days and how sad is that? but the day will go on with or without scandal and fanfare, just another blessed and wonderful day in my world, which these days has become so very small.

But the main purpose of me writing today is to reflect, look forward and thank God for my opportunity to be in a place that i almost gave away for whatever reason. a year ago today Terria accepted me back into her life and we have built upon a strong foundation and the daily venture to today is a daily victory toward a future of growing old together. I try not to look back too much these days but when i do i see the aftermath of destruction and being in the trenches during the rebuilding of a marriage and trust and belief in one another, or her belief for and in me. My Trust in her was never an issue and truly the most incredible woman I have ever met on so many levels. So strong and so dynamic, how lucky am i to be loved by this incredible person that has enriched our lives on a daily basis. given and receiving the goodness that we share everyday is a beautiful thing. With the assistance Of Michael to keep us focused on our own personal demons and to work through them with the tools and the power to make ourselves and our relationship so much deeper and stronger on every level imaginable. What a great place to be  and don't ever plan on departing voluntarily anytime ever again! The day is a strong emotional day for me it marks both good times opening up and bad times of hurt and pain by my actions of last year. we have moved along and we have risen above the toils and troubles that i had created. So Blessed am i and so very happy to be where i am in my life

Graduation Day

Today we have a goos day planned of going to My Niece Kayely's High School Graduation from ST. Bonaventure in Ventura and then have a celebration lunch at Paradise Cove in Malibu. This is right on the water and serves some really good food without the Malibu feeling of stuffiness! We bring all of the family together with some we want to see and those who we really don't but go in support of our Niece and soldier on in the attempts to have a great day and another stepping stone for this young lady, who will be attending  a small Christian College in Montana this fall on a full ride playing Softball. The Lyons family already has 2 college grads and will now have 2 attending school at the same time at different schools! So mom and Dad Lyons should be very proud of their kids accomplishments and they are!  After the fun time in Malibu we plan on coming home and making my Friend Robert Nevarez's Mom a birthday cake of strawberry cake, with strawberry filled layers and strawberry butter frosting, we will make enough to either make a few cupcakes or a small layer cake for ourselves . Should be a very action packed day and we must first begin it with a trip to Bally's gymnasium for a rough and tumble hour of whatever we can muster up this morning , not really feeling the love for the gym but will eat poorly today and need to justify to food with a workout. Good day planned for sure,gym ughh

Have an Average Day,Ya bunch a Mediocre Fucks!!!

I am having these shirts made up for family and friends who know that my humor sometimes spills over to modern day fashion. A bunch of 25 of these should run me about 300 bucks and good for a few laughs. Sad part is I've alway prided myself in being a center of the aisle kind of guy emotionally, never too high or too low so the Average day part applies to me even though most of my days  are incredible. The "Mediocrity Rules ! portion is a tribute to what this society has become with their half assed approach to most everything! So All is fair in Life and Living it to the fullest, even if I hurt some feelings along the way, they will heal and we shall survive...trust me

Most of my Amazing Family

Pictured below are the majority of my amazing family, The sequence in which these listed is incorrect but thats me the ugly guy pissing while snapping a picture.This is why I don't take too many pictures, this one taken while trying to take a picture and urinate in the latrine at work...not easy

The incredible Terria with 2 of our 3 boys Ty on left and Braz on the right! One of My Favorite Pictures. 

Here we have the Missing Boy and oldest son Brandon on Left, Brother Rich in center and CRazy brother in Law Timotardo on the right. Missing in Pictures are big sister April and sister Linda. I don't take too many pictures and generally refuse to do so because I'm an ugly mother fucker that's why!!!

Good Times...still!!!

In reading a plethora of other Blogs and entries from across the hall, I've noticed so many of the other Blogs are self obsessed with being proper and dotting I's and crossing T's and being ever so proper. My idea of this Blog is to make it so personal that I forget where I am and who if any is my audience, which is whatever it is and not the point of self expressing! Here I can  forget the grade school punctuations and let it flow without fear of reprisals or being graded down,counting entirely on my wits at this point in the game to be free of thought outside of what the next word will be. I was thoroughly shocked and surprised by my Boss Peter Faulk this morning after he told me that he had given me an 800 dollar bonus for the efforts that I have put in regarding customer service and gave another worker the same, everybody else got less based on their performances and it did make me feel good that the man was watching how well I deal with our customers and made it a point to tell me today. Makes me feel like he appreciated the extra effort and the fact that I am a team player and make sure the office is covered during lunches and training days. All things that are common sense but hard to believe that grown adults don't always take into account that people rely on them being where they are supposed to be and that doesn't always happen in our office. But all being told, the workplace is a great place to work  and have laughs , sometimes at the aforementioned co-workers expense and them not truly even realizing it at all. The gifts of being witty and quick have their privileges for sure. Tomorrow brings about my last work day of the week, being off Monday and Tuesday and coming back to work today makes this a very short week for sure, off this Friday and will enjoy another long weekend of trying to find something fun to do and will succeed ...trust me !