My Realizations

I Don't really know what happened to me yesterday, the foulest mood I've been in a long time, so much so that i left work at lunch before i was going to kill somebody at work, be it customer or co-worker? Regardless of the mood there came a realization for me that I am a better person than i give myself credit for, and that all the therapeutic jibberish about suppression this and expressing that are a crock to me at this point, led myself to believe that there was really something wrong with me and that the mistakes of last year are just that ,mistakes, not death sentences that we hold onto like AIDs or a Cancer but things that have solutions, i have fixed myself and moreso forgiven myself for the dirty deeds of last year and have moved on in my head and in my daily life.

I move forward and will enjoy the things that i enjoy and will no long suppress those likes for the sake of somebody else, I am not a broken person and not a person who will ever venture back to the likes of last years debacle. I have grown as a person  and as that person was never truly far of from where i needed to be, just to realize that I don't have to do it alone and can lean on my wife and family is a life lesson that i shall never forget. I like most other human beings has an albatross that lingers, mine will no longer impede my progress onto bigger and better things in this life and will surround myself with positive and honest people, the few friends that i do have are priceless and I do appreciate them all, they all know who they are and regardless of how often i see them they are true to me and my everyday. So being thankful for the family and friends that surround me and embracing the love and kindness will never go away. My writing on this and other sites will be little to none from here on out ,I've used this place as a crutch too long now and must move on and along in my life without the co-dependency off reading , writing or anything else that i have held onto for so long. Good bye for now!