Lonely Ride

 I don't have dreams anymore

I just can't dream anymore

I sleep and don't weep anymore

My efforts to block off my sad past

I have many conversations alone

Sing a song to bring me joy

Fill up the tank and take a drive

Where I'm going I never know

I drive by my old street

Thinking if anyone is home

I have yet to make that turn down Simon Way

So I drive on by and say I did

I talk to an old friend

She tells me that clarity is coming soon

She should know she was my first ex wife

Now she's a sounding board of reason

So much of what she tells me is true

I just don't want to believe it

I have built theses walls that border rational thinking

So close but yet so high to reach

I lost my best friend and my wonderful wife

Our conversations that never ended

We spent hours on the phone at our start

Now I don't exist and won't be heard

This feeling of lost hope

To hear a voice that says hello

How aere you feeling , how have you been

The few words that I wish I'd hear

There are no grand delusions

Thoughts to make it right

The point of no return has come and gone

Still I wait by my phone to hear that voice

My common ground has sunken

Into the depths of a burning fear

I hate to think that I will live and die alone

When nobody knows or really cares