Fighting The Pain

Not physically feeling very good today

A Trip to the gym should set me up right

I really hate to feel so bad

I know it's temporary and partly mental

I carry my world on my broken shoulders

Wavering balance and gentle strides

It doesn't seem to be getting better

I'm emotionally defeated but keep on fighting

A lunchtime visit for a quick workout

Set my mind free from feeling the pains

Something positive created

Negativity must be left behind

I sometimes wonder what's the point

I don't always feel positive results

Sometimes I just want to leave

Quit the shit and rot and die

I have allowed my pains to take me over

Thinking about a normal day

I have gone 20 plus years of carrying this pain

Now I carry it alone and it's heavier than before

Reality has set in now

I won't get better just become a burden

I fight and struggle and am beginning to tire!

I just don't know how much longer I'll care to fight