I'm. A Dumbass

File this Under fuck the iPhone to try to blog from its not worth frying to do I swear. So when I get on my xomputer I will clean up the mess that this keyboard with big fingers at the help. Fuck!!!

Game Over, Rams win,great Time!

The game ended about 515 local time or 415 our time and we Proceeded on our way were. On the road by 5 and making great time so far. Terria T the wheel after my 200 mile first leg of the trip home. Not a great game but a Ram victory and am very happy and feel bad for Derek Amderson he really stunk it up today and was benchd for the second stringer max Hall who then got hurt and rather then Put Anderson back in he went to a 3rd stringer some kook named Skelton who did ok but they need a QB bAdly. A really touching scene at the end of the game was watching Oregon state grads Stephaen Jackson from the R
O f the Rams embrace former college teammate Deeek Anderson who was obviously down in the dumps after probably his last snap as a Cardinal QB very nice touch of class by Jackson the embrace lasted over a Minute really cool to see terria was happy with the seAts and the trip and we were in hog heaven took her by a couple of the sSpring training sites really cool we even stopped and did some house hunting in a develoement acrossfrom Dodgers camp in Saddleback and did a tour SP damn cheap at 130k for a 3 and 2 1/2 bath Brand new so we will crunch numbers and see what we cAn Do about that for a rental property one vAcation house for golf and football and spring training games. Who knows ? Great trIP and more tCme wane. N van oat my pIcs from my computer and not this damn iPhone small. Screen more when I get home about 1030 tonight

The Big Silver Cupcake

I affectionately call this place the Big Cupcake, my wife calls it the Cardinal Nest, i like my term better only because the nest only works when you're team is good, this years they suck and well without my hero Kurt Warner they are less than mediocre. So expecting a Ram victory tomorrow but more so a great day on the 35 years line with my Terria having a great time together cheering for our respective favorite teams! A long day tomorrow, starts at 9 am ,make and eat breakfast in the room and thehn head out to the stadium about 11-ish and try to blend into a tailgating party somewhere, going to be hard with a Cardinal Fan and a Ram fan, Terria will be wearing her Fitzgerald Jersey #11 and well there will be no sight of any Rams tailgaters without getting their asses kicked. We did get a beautiful room with a kitchen and nice amenities for $49 per night, very nice work desks and a recliner in the corner for me. I will take some pictures tomorrow of the beautiful stadium and facility that the Cardinals use. We are 3 blocks away from the Peoria and Surprise facilities used by the Brewers for Spring training in February and March, looking forward to that this Spring. Good night!

The Road to Utopia, ok....Arizona

Hour 5 of the 6 hour drive to Glendale Az and what an ugly day it is. Terria at the wheel and this iPhone sizzle to type on but that's alright its good in other areas so whatever. Can't wait ti get to the room and shower and relax a bit our room has a kitchenettes so we will have a choice about dinner tonight. Wonder what kind of Parry Branson will have tonight while were gone? He will be fine with the house that much I know so still roadwaed towards Glendale and seems like we should ne there by now as it feels like I've been typing 3 days so far....wow I gotta get used t this thing and quick otherwise Terria gets it and I get the Blackberry back awaiting to get back on my Mac air in the room. Good day for now and hoPefully get some go of AZ game pictures tomorrow. More later

Very Quiet!

Really have nothing to add or share today, a very nice Birthday celebration for Terria's birthday and a very quiet day today, so i really am shutting it down for now not much to write about and not much energy to do so. Tomorrow we head out for Phoenix and the Football game on Sunday, heading back after game and going to work on Monday. Look  forward to a nice trip and a real good game.  This weekend should bring some real good pictures and something to write about and a rest from writing through a writers block for  now

Happy Birthday Terria Lynn

Today marks the 13th birthday celebration for me with Terria, not our anniversary but been with her for 13 birthdays and today is her 46th. Seems a little uninspired by it all as do i generally for my own birthdays. So here i sit wondering what we will do tonight, she doesn't want to go out for her dinner , she wants to stay home, no family or friends and I'm doing whatever she wants me to do. so assuming that i will cook something for dinner tonight, either scallops or some really good seafood of some sort, since she can't eat red meat anymore I am stuck with chicken or seafood dishes for her and actually prefer cooking those types of dishes as they allow for a certain level of creativity that i enjoy. so As i contemplate the menu for this evening I am trying to see where I can buy the goods for the meal tonight, i will give the cursory cal to My wife and ask for any special requests, and then when she says Surprise me, i will go into my creative mode and think of something really good for the occasion.  Really funny how she is the only woman i have ever been with that downplayed her birthdays and never truly wanted large gatherings and a whole lotta fanfare to accompany her Birthdays. Be as it may I am so very happy that we can celebrate it together and whatever we do is the least important thing in the equation but doing the day and night as one is where we are in life, so good and so proud of the work we have done to get where we are. I know that I am at times very complex and harder to understand, even more so as i get older, my requirements and thresholds are so much different that ever before.  But having Terria as my companion is a real asset in that i can lean upon and run things through her and she never wavers in her honesty and articulated answers. This holiday will be a new experience for all of us, we will be essentially flying solo this Christmas with Braz and nikki being in Hawaii, Ty has essentially checked out ad is living with his Girlfriend, Brandon who is living at te house is very quiet and unassuming in his demeanor and really hard to tell if he's home at times. so Terria and i are left to our own devices at most times and enjoy the solitude of each others company, terria's strained relationship with her psychotic mother has allowed her to break away from walking on eggshells with her mother and she can now not have to be at her mother's beck and call and deal with her eccentricities at nauseum anymore, her mother's choice to make tit this way and we are all good with it. her mother has in a sense become what her mother was, an embittered old woman who truly thinks that's she's special for not what she does, just that she is and she exists therefore she is special, not in this lifetime Lady , and her treatment of her perfectly wonderful daughter is criminal to me. but we are in a better place as a result, sad to think that there are people so who think and live so negatively and assume that the world owes them their just due. Well, when reality sets in and you die and grumpy old person with 3 people by your side then your life has been a bitter disappointment i would think. For now , we live in the positive and the goodness that we share and have been allowed by god to enjoy on a daily basis, forever growing towards bigger and better things without haste or without  condemnation but truly allowed to enjoy our life's as they are, very simple and very enjoyable together. So i wish a very Happy 46th birthday to my girl and my special Lady Terria, Gods has blessed us with the life and understanding that we will share til our parting days, i plan on enjoying each and every one to the fullest degree. Have a wonderful day sweetie, I love you so very much!

December and the holidays of Life

A new Month is finally upon us and December officially ring in the holiday season for yours truly. I keep beating this Horse to death but i take myself back a year and remember the accident and the fact that i was still in the hospital trying not to bleed to death, terria and the family by my side and just wanting to come home and recuperate in the comforts of my own home. Well that would finally happen come on the 5th of December and all seemed to be on the mend. 23 days later i would be back at work trying to get through the days without falling asleep and fighting the entire day. throughout this whole time i was not on twitter or facebook and didn't even turn my phone on until late December. so this time of year really gives me a sense of appreciation for i know where i was last year and the condition that i was in was very scary to say the least, very trying time for the family and i was there just absorbing the pains that i inflicted. I was just talking to Terria about the fact that I prayed efveryday for the Lord to take care of my family and never to heal me or to make things easier for me, at that tome i knew my christian faith was in the right place and the life that i would see the new year would be a great one, and it was , a few hiccups and a few mild if not turbulent storms that i created but the weather man was kind and we are enjoying the sunshine each and everyday from here on out. Yes, December rings in the joys of the holiday where love of family ,friends and the  Lord are celebrated with the ones we love and the ones who love us! Christmas at the holidays for us has always meant family, friends and the cheer of a very low key christmas season, we don't do the tree or the lights in my house, that to me is not what christmas means to me, i know the term Bah humbug always gets thrown my way but if you weren't in my house to see the lack of festivities via decorations than you would never know it, i do love the holidays  true intended meanings, the gifts and fanfare are not for me, but the togetherness that it brings is what truly moves me. we have no little kids around so we treat it like another day in the duran household and each day is celebrated with the love that usually gets celebrated around the holidays , but everyday for us, never wavering always a festive season emotionally, that is what the accident has brought me, the love and awareness to know that we can lose it all today and each day above ground is not only a blessing, but an opportunity to make a difference in somebody's life and world, for this i hope I have and can make a difference in this world by the love and kindness I have been blessed to give on a daily basis. all of my gifts are repredsented by the man upstairs and has given me the opportunity to be different and yet very conventional in the giving aspect of my life. We have things that happen in our lives, to us , around us , sickness in family and friends yet to date we are blessed with health and the second chances to make amends when we make wrongs, the ability to improve upon thins that were never broken and to enjoy the things that money can never buy.. love and happiness amongst all that we come into contact with on a daily basis. I truly feel that I have been been installed around here to bring a certain something, a calm when it needs to be calm and a storm to shake things up,for this I just say i gotta be me and the filters that so easily get wiped away from myb thought process are being dealt with as well in the forms of therapy and counsel, but this is a great time to be alive whether or not i agree with the shit going on in our world ,the political dogshit republican party  or the sarah Fucking Palins of this world the Paper christians who really don't get the meanoing of being a good christian means you must forst ,be a good person??? But the fact that we are here and are well shows us a great resolve in that we are here to make a difference where we can, know when we cant and learn to fight lifes battles as they come, some of which we walk away from when we know the gains aren't worth the effort. more later , for now i have been tasked to make breakfast for the office