reflection

looking in the rear view
I see the dirty window
I get out and wipe it down
and see reflections i dont like

Going far and riding fast
the mind has no time to stop
I resurrect and try to deflect
the realities with a laugh

My phones abuzz
the thoughts of us
I see your name appear
and when it wasn't u i waited for

The hurt and grief
longing and disbelief
I took a short fast ride
while the horse carriage waited outside

Re-visit and do not enjoy
retracing only to deploy
this lifes anchor of stagnation that i find
how these issues never leave my mind

A visit to an old friend yesterday
a kick in the ass and a heartfelt reminder
my pot of Gold I put aside
Is now my life and soul which i confide

the mirror in the bathroom
for more than combing my hair
I look deep into my own soul and heart
and a refelction that just Isn't right

for every tomorrow passes yesterday
the days grown better and feel less pain
The guilt be forbidden and a new day wins
yesterdays are over and my future begins