Back for More

So many times I have thought that the last post here would be my final post here but that never seems to happen. regardless of where I'm at emotionally , spiritually or just physically at odds with whatever the day ha s brought me,I'm still here kicking and screaming through the day. I have tried to wash my hands of the negativity that floated around me, be it work, friends or life itself and have done a really good job in doing so I think. Trying to focus on family and the few Friends that I do have  has made things easier, and the few really fun and exciting interests that I do have I have tried to envelope myself into those whenever i can and usually  am able to do so at will. The fact that there are no more kids to raise and take care of is really nice in that the work is done and the time for fun is ours to enjoy.

Working today, Monday morning, very slow but a good start to the week and a new outlook so to speak, the weekend went well and seemingly slower than normal for me. Was able to get in a bucket of balls and a roll of 3 games testing the new Bowling ball , a motorcycle ride and watched some football and Baseball on the tube, PGA golf was exciting as well with a playoff between 2 relative unknowns so it was nice to see some newer blood reap the spoils of a major tourney win this weekend. Still have not gotten into the new Schaeffer book  and don't know why I can't , he's my favorite writer now and am in some type of reading slump or something. It will hopefully pass and get back into reading, i have 5 or 6 books that I need to read and are just collecting dust on the bookshelf, so that will be a goal of mine.

I will no longer write my political beliefs or angers here anymore ,I now know why i don't vote and have never been a part of this process that infuriates me so much, so from here on out that will be a no no around these parts. I will just focus on the things that i ca control and the idiots in political arenas will do their thing and we will adjust, as we always have and always will be the puppets to the system that was created to help us all, just seems to help the affluent and that's another story altogether that I will waste not one minute on. so heres' to the positive outlook that I seek out and try to involve my everyday ...very Good Times

Quiet Times

Trying not to follow the daily news too much these days but the realities of it all make the news that much more stunning to me. The stock market and the previous few weeks of political uncertainty, now the new GOP scary candidates of far  right religious nut jobs that I am so fearful of and see them gaining a bit of ground n terms of people actually taking them seriously in the fact that more than 2 people are listening, prayer meetings and debates on all sides make this a very tumultuous time for the 2012 campaign.  But other than that , the debt deal is signed, I have a job and wife has a job and the new school year is ready to get us back into the daily routine of both of us going to work every morning.

The weekend is almost over, golf, motorcycle and bowling tomorrow if all goes well, giving the gym a rest tomorrow and need to justify having a motorcycle in the garage so I will ride it tomorrow and make good use of a free day.  Not much to write about here lately , lot going on but feeling like dealing with things  differently and keeping my thoughts more to myself and not be so generous with the thoughts that do come to mind. But either way things are well and life is a good as it has ever been, missing the Braz and Ty and hoping for a return visit from Braz on liberty from the desert. So Saturday nights coming to a close here soon, rst and relax and rejuvenate for a hopefully eventful Sunday afternoon. Good Night and Good Times ahead

Nothing To say

I really thought I had something to write and it all went away in a second, don't know how or why it just vanished before my eyes and now I sit here dribbling my thoughts and my words with really nothing to say or describe, can't even make anything up at this point so it might be better to shut up and go away til the memory serves me better and i do have something somewhat significant to spew about.  Oh yeah, Thanks Terria for always being the stone of love and reason and know it is to be assumed that I speak for us when i describe something that we did together ,even if your name is excluded,so sorry about that and the trip to Big bear would have been meaningless without you there. More later when i have an idea of what the hell I'm trying to say on this first day back to work!

Back To Work

Seems like I've been on vacation all summer long, as If I'm the teacher in the family which I am definitely not!  Back to the grind tomorrow after being off 2 of the last 3 weeks for various vacations of some sort. Just got back from a really relaxing 4 days in Big Bear ski resort town! A very quiet and relaxing place to hang out and chill on the water front of Big Bear lake.We ate well and had some good times with Tim and April and hope to go back again in the future. Haven't been back to Morales in about a month and don't know if I will go back anymore, It's run it's course for me at this point  and I can look in the mirror and realistically move forward and look to the future for better results under similar situations, been there done that mentality I suppose. Either way I will forge ahead and take what I've learned through the therapy I've had over the past year and hope that I continue to make good decisions and become better at everything I do, to include being a husband and a father, and friend to those few I call a friend! Very much like the old song from Big Country" I'm just a shadow of the man I should be,, like a garden through the forest that the world will never see"  love that song but hate the premise of that statement, so sad but yet too true in my case at times. I know my friend Scott and I have equated phrases like this and others from songs such as Circlesquared from the Wonderstuff.We laugh at times yet have the same blank stare at each other thinking.....what if???