Moving Forward

 I received a stunning yet not unexpected message last night

A message from my 12 year old grand daughter

She has been using a journal to present her thoughts

I received a couple of her entries

I can't say how much of it was her or her parents

12-year-old little girls don't generally tell grandpa to FUCK OFF

Go to Hell was heard as well, I was stunned and amazed

Someone loves her grandma and really hates me

Too much was shared with this little girl

Told things that really should have never been shared

Grandma and Grandpa are no longer together

Leave it at that and be sad together

As I read her words, I felt her sadness

She lost her Papa and had nothing to do with it

I don't agree with the separation 

But I'm not the one to make those decisions

I can agree and disagree all I want to

My decisions created this unfortunate situation

I sift through the broken hearts and broken relationships

Knowing I can't fix this although I've tried

My little Girl who was my first Grand child

Deep in my heart she makes me hurt

My deep loss and disappointment in her eyes

Will follow me wherever I go

My saving grace that gives me hope

My two little ones from my other boy

I will bridge the distance between us 3 

I will give them all this Papa can give