I Still Think Of You

 So many thoughts invade my days

I think about good things and some misfortune

By days end I'm mentally exhausted

So I send myself to bed

My nights are so different than my days

I slow down the process

But the process never ends

I don''t dream anymore, I think myself to sleep

I think about hitting a Baseball

Listening to my favorite music

Having conversations with people who have come and gone

Constant companionship without speaking out loud

I recall the 100's of concerts I've attended

Baseball games all across the country

I think about singing and hitting a Baseball very hard

I wish I wish, I wanted to be either when I grew up

Now that I'm older and never truly grew up

I follow my Baseball Dodgers and I sing along to my favorite tunes

It's as close as I get to being there for real

It is close enough for me

All of my passions were shared with my children and wives

They enjoyed watching me enjoy myself

Selfless human being I was blessed to have in my life

Gone today but never forgotten, forever admired

A song came on Youtube tonight

"I still think of you and all the shit you put me through"

"You made pain your lover, infidelity not discreet"(group MS. MR.)

I wonder if she thinks of me?