Sorry and Goodbye

 I've never felt so sorry

But I've never felt sorry enough

This life I've wasted on frivolity

Has finally got the best of me

Too many times I've had an option

So many times the options were good

I could always find the worst of all options

I wear it like a cape of cowardice

I could never walk away from the depths of hate

When you hate yourself where do you go

This freight train running down the hill

Had brakes that I chose not to use

I've said goodbye to all that was great

Or it was told to me on my way out

I try not to look back it hurts too much

Complacent in all the wrong places

I say goodbye to my troubled past

My questionable future holds no boundaries

I try so hard to be a righteous man

Will my efforts mean anything in the end

Nobody who has been devastated wants to hear sorry

Show me proof that there has been change

When all I feel is sorrow and embarrassment

I can't fool myself any longer and won't try

The day of reckoning is upon me

The fork is there dividing my path

Which way should I jump is someone calling me

I'm not ready to go down that road yet