When I wake up to my surreal reality
Look around where Am I?
These walls don't look like my bedroom
Sterile surrounding and a beeping machine overhead
When I awaken I see the smiling face
I don't know her ,but she wants my blood
I oblige and feel the piercing of my skin
Where am I going anyway
As I try to escape my new reality
I feel sadness knowing they hurt more than I do
6 weeks in my sterile surroundings
Me and my plastic jugg, urination awaits
Staying busy with bad TV
Surviving with friendly Emails and text messages
you know who you are
And I love you all for it
The days pass by quickly
Yet this time capsule of medical teams and resident students
Puzzled by my asymptomatic existence
What will they do, they don't know?
Then SEPSIS visited me one Thursday night
Literally thought I was over with
The reaper was staring at me
Yet I smiled and joked with the staff of many Doctors
Mr. Duran, we need to do a procedure on you right now
"Fuck Really" was my response
The trotted me into Operating room
Did their thing , I'm in ICU now
New nurses , new everything, same disdain for my health
I could have died but I was still smiling
I knew my situation but It didn't concern me
I was ready to die, but didn't want to
Morning is here I'm feeling pretty good
Family arrives and cheers me up
My texts from my other family made me smile
I ready to "Fight on"
The Hospital USC Keck Medical Center
So blessed to be in their halls
So much talent looking over me
Yet they didn't know what to do
Four weeks of indecision
I'm a case study for the books
After 4 weeks in various hospital
They send me home and formulated a plan
I have cancer, they could not operate
Hearts week, blood pressure all over the place
Pissing like a race horse drinking beer
50 lbs of fluid out of my body
I am home at last waiting for the call
Operate or Chemotherapy
They opted for my choice, burn it down!
So off to Radiation Nation I go
Almost six weeks of chemo to look forward to
5 days a week for 6 weeks
I wanted this, I needed this
A direction was now in place
I rang the bell , 28 sessions of quick hell
The Prize Fighter I had to be
I said goodbye with chocolates and coffee cards
I had little to say but thank you all
Recuperation is where I am
Body is ridding the toxins slowly each day
I'm feeling better with a purpose to survive
Life is more than being alive
So I end this long winded thought
With another thought
I have CANCER and I'm OK with it
Thank you all for your LOVE AND SUPPORT
I am BLESSED, thank you GOD!!!!!!!
