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Life and Reality

Been a few since posting anything here so here I am still kicking hard and taking names. The summer in mid flight and going quickly, moreso for Terria than i , she has school to look forward to in August ,I have work to look forward to everyday. With that being said it really has been a rapid summer, our Texas trip starts next wednesday and so looking towards a great time in the Lonestar state, will probably make me appreciate California that much more from a weather stand point at least, don't know about the people, can't be any worse than the Cali Shit we deal with on a daily basis, bunch of Do nothing, be nothing , aspire to not help anybody but themselves mentality. OK so texas is in the front view and have allot of driving to cover and many cities to run through in such a short amount of time. Dealey Plaza is really my most anxious moment of the trip, and even the Astrodome and the cotton bowl in Dallas, the ballgames will be cool but Dealey Plaza is the focus of my trip being a history nut and reading so much about the subject finding myself wanting to see for myself the possibilities and angle sof attack that took place that day. fuck the Warren Commission and their non conspiratorial findings such blatant bullshit to say the least. So we are expecting a warm trip but a good ,quick and safe venture into lands we have yet to visit! On a more serious note , thinking of my brother in Law Tim who is undergoing some testing for some issues with lymph nodes and blockages of the arteries in his arm, things that only tests and the medical field can determine yet we worry and think of all of the negative things naturally as we do. Things would really be hard on all f us without our Tim around and know that this concerns big sis and the rest of the family about his well-being. So we think good thoughts and know God has a plan for all of us and if Tim's fate is a bad result than we are blessed with the strength to get through it with the mans blessings. I really do feel he will be alright but the not knowing is the hardest part and we shall be positive until we find out otherwise. Go get em timmie we love you and know you will fight whatever the outcomes of the symptoms. Thanks to terria for accompanying My sister April to some Dr's Appointments , she is really great at asking the right questions and looking beyong the normal prognosis and will ask the what if questions and follow up until she gets the true answers to her questions, thanks for loving us the way you do!!!! On a lighter note I am making Carnitas for Ty tonight, he has a few weeks before he ships out to Bootcamp and we will soon have 2 boys in the U.S. Army. So he has made a wish list of meals that we are to make for him before he leaves, one was Homemade Flour tortillas and beans which will accompany the Carnitas and refried beans tonight. He evidently also requested tacos, some sort of Oreo truffle concoction and a homemade Cheesecake which we don't do, we will make a kick ass cheesecake but we haven't ever made one. He wanted something else and we shall fulfill his order for knowing that Galley food in the Army will be as bad as they say it is. I do have the Pork butts in the oven here at work slow cooking and will take them home from here to fry and finish them off while i make beans and the tortillas to complete the order of the day. so off to check on my Pork and waiting for the day to come to a close. taking the gym off today and not really gonna miss it too much, a little burned out with it now so a day off will hopefully refresh the body and soul and hit it hard tomorrow with a new invigoration and attitude!

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I plead The 5th

The Day after the 4th of July which by definition would make it the 5th of July I hear??? A very nice and quiet 4th, a great BBQ of dead cows and birds and breaking in the new old fashioned BBQ grill in style! Not using my state of the art Gas grill anymore the taste of Gas is not appealing to my palate anymore or my burp rate per minute. Had a very nice dinner with Terria and Brandon and enjoyed a surprise visit from Baby Aubrey, oh yeah Ty and Mandy showed up to...ouch, just kidding , but we talked about seeig her all day long and got the call that they would be coming by and we became instantly happy at the thought of seeing our precious baby Aubs. We hugged her and kissed her wetting her cheeks with our admiration and love for her. She is such a life changing elemment to us, gives us more reasons to stay healthy and be around to watch her grow into a young woman and enjoy her upbringing. What a journey we are preparing for knowing that our baby girl and son will soon depart and go on with their lives in the U.S. Army somewhere either here or abroad, it will be difficult for both Terria and I but we will become heroes of Skype for sure ,even if we have to buy them a damn laptop to do so. Trying to keep it all positive and will give us another reason to travel wherever they are. Speaking of Travel, we are really looking forward to our Texas junket, a chance for new ballparks and some history as well, traveling the great I-10 freeway system is always worth something if not laughs some historical entertainment. THe Dallas Experience will be a real adventure for me and Terria will also get to see an old College roomie as well as her second or theird favorite man in the world, Josh Hamilton, Larry fitzgerald might be 2 but for now I would put him at #3 until Football season comes around and we ride to Phoenix to watch him play. I know the heat will be high but i'm ready for it, working out and trying to get in tip top condition has and will help deal with it but the journey is never ending and it's oneday at a time for sure. Terria's Achilles injury has slowed her a bit but not stopped her from doing everyhting she wants to do, still in her boot until further notice we hope she has it off in time for the long trip to Texas? Again, very thankful for the life that we live and the things we are blessed to enjoy beyond the materialistic aspect of it all, being in a position to essentially do what we want whenever we want to is a good place to be, traveling is always a big thing with us, little trips, big trips just things being done together is really all that matter! So As we ventur eout and travel the country bit by bit our New York trip had tentatively been set for either next sppring or next summer, probably summer because Dodgers Spring training is always important to enjoy as well and that is a 7 hour drive away and easy to access. Thankful to terria for everything that she does and even doesn't do that makes me so very happy. It's hard to explain our rrealtionship at times, not many understand it and I don't even try to explain it at all, it just is so damn amazing to know that we can be who we are in life and share passions and support the passions of each other that do not mix with our own mutual likes or dislikes. We just flow and move along iwth the mutual respect and love that allows us to continually grow to newer elevated heights that really cannot be explained but rather enjoyed and savored like a nice meal and drink, very palatible and nourishing for the heart, mind and soul! We venture onward with our kids grown and doing their own thing and really not needing us for anything other than a sound board on occation but that's all part of the parenting thing that never takes a day off so we embrace our responsibilities as do so with love. Not much going on here at the workplace but the watching the clock slowly tick closer to 4 pm and a trip to the gym, sounds boring and tedious and at times truly is but thefact of the matter is that I have blessed genetically with some really slow acting metabolic capabilities and it is very easy for me to gain weight, consequently is easy to lose as well but not always easy to keep off and that's why the gym ritualistic visits to the gym are so important for my health both physically and mentally, to know that i'm trying to make a health choice here is just that, no more stagnation and no more sitting back and waiting, go get it done and wait for nothing or nobody! Being in a great place these days is awesome, realizing how blessed we are and appreciating it are even greater in my eyes. I look around the small sample size that is my office, my building , my friendsa nd family and see the various forms of crazy dysfunction and abnormal handling of life in general. So I sit back in wonderment nad won't judge it as good or bad but thank God that it Isn't my life that I see them living, maybe they think the same of me and that's cool in my book, to each their own as they say and thats what makes life so intersting. So i close with yet another Greg-ism, I'd rather be happy and poor, than an billionaire with sorrow and no substance! Good times and Good-bye for now- Saurus Out!

The 4th And Beyond

Heading towards the 4th of July with nothing planned and nothing really on the horizon.  The workweek is cut in half and will return on Thursday and Friday to end it all. Really have nothing planned, will BBQ some dead animals and thats about it, have a few diet pepsi's and some mother earth food to keep it as healthy as possible.  Let's see where I'm at these days , prepping for the Texas trip and a  few ballgames in Arlington and one in Houston which should be cool in itself. Want to try to see the famed Astrodome before they tear it down and maybe the NASA Space center while driving through. One of my main objectives while in Dallas is to see Dealey Plaza and see the spot of the JFK assassination as this part of history and the coverup really plagues my thoughts of this country,along with the 9-11 Bullshit story from Mr. Bush,but that's a different book altogether. Should be really Hot in texas at the end of July but we are ready for it and it's whatever as far as I'm concerned.  We did enjoy the turnaround trip to Vegas this past weekend to see the Penn and Teller show at the Rio, drove home immediately after the show and a quick 5 hour drive brought us back to the Nard at 4 am so all in al a very good, quick ,safe trip. The anticipation of the drive to Texas is really exciting to me, i love to drive and really enjoy having my co-pilot listen to music with me as we drive, carrying a conversation about our lives and where we have been and where we want to go from here is always the best part of the trips we take. But before all of that i have a chore and a task to try to complete before we leave.

The task of removing and replacing my front lawn is haunting me as I speak, really want to get it ship shape and get back my old sparkling lawn to it's old self again. Always had a great lawn but gophers took over and destroyed it, I have plans to implant devices which are said to keep them away and will hope that they do their job! So my next set of choices are the following, do i pull, level and re-seed or do I level, clear, amend the soil and buy the Sod new and start over fresh and new with totally perfect instantly spectacular lawn?? And if so which Marathon Sod do i pick, there are over 20 types of Sod and 4 types of Marathon in itself, so the decisions won't be easy on any front and I will decide by this weekend which mode of resurrection I will take. 

On the personal front Terria and I move onward each and everyday towards bigger and better things together and with our kids and immediate families, the days of the past are used to remind where we have been and that we can't dwell on all of that but proceed on with the goodness and the hard work we have put in to put us in a greater place than ever before. Input equals output i life and in everything we do so the hard work has definitely paid dividends on the personal front, we still have work to do and time to work on becoming even better, stagnation is never a place we want to be ever again and no fault of hers but in my mind i became that satisfied, stop trying to get better person in our marriage and essentially content with the way things were, which in relationships is the death serum for sure. We have moved on without the services of Michael Morales, not by choice but he has since retired as of May 31,2012 and has left us the opportunity to call him off line if needed, or as long as he stays in the country, something about him going back to Paris to live might take him away from us forever, we shall see.  I do miss him in sense, but in a way think that there was an opportunity for Terria to sink or swim in where we are in life, so far all afloat and doing incredibly well.  I have forgiven myself for my departure to my marriage and have built upon my strengths with her and we have tried so hard to forget the past  but always somehow use it to propel us to newer heights and appreciation of the woman I almost let out of my life.  I have forgiven myself as has Terria but won't ever forget the place in my life and in my mind the how and why of what I did to my wife and family, I can only look and thank Terrias Strengths and the reason that we are where we are, I made some serious life realizations through her strengths that enabled me through counseling to see the light of day and go through everyday with a better understanding of the type of person i was, am and want to continue to grow to be.  So very thankful to God and all of the Family and Friends who never turned their backs not only on me , but Terria, so much love and support from both my family and her Sister and her Family, the rest, to include her mother can go Fuck themselves for their lack of support for Terria for something that I did to her and had no effect on the relationship between Terria and them, they can hate me for what i did but not Terria who was the victim here and got no support from her mother or Brother, but thankfully my family(most of my family, minus Linda,all bark no bite and a paper Christian, yeah i said it  and I'm over it, fuck her too) and  her sister Brazaleen and the kids stepped it up and gave her the love she deserved, for that i will be eternally grateful and will never forget. So back to my not so busy workday and lack of schedule, will be out of here by 3, off to the gym and home to prep meat for tomorrow. Hope all is awesome in the world today, it is where I see it but not everybody see the world where I sit, Happy and safe 4th!