The Thought ran through my mind
With a needle in my back
And the pains in my spine
The world I love so hard to define
So I scrape and I crawl to the other side
Where the mystery is dark
and the curtains closed shut
I struggle to realize
That the world is not forever
and tomorrows may never come
Like a battlefield soldier
I cringe and open my eyes to facts that lay ahead
My days turn into nights
And the darkness seems to suit me right
Sleepless and gasping
for the life I want
which is precious life in itself.
trying not to look into the rear view
for the upcoming days are few to enjoy
closer to the end than the beginning
I see the end but fear nothing
My spirituality and realizations
Of a deed done right and giving from my heart
This world owes me nothing
That this life has given me so much
I will never complain for this goodness
Will eventually come to an end
No darkness is upon me
No wishes of the end
The Realist in my soul tonight
Will make me enjoy the ride to the finish
My gifts and my rewards
are the things and people i can touch
With some goodness and thoughtfulness
Or and ear ,and a strong shoulder
Bleesed am i to live this life
with those who surround my day
The blessings come from the little things
The things that we don't ask for
So i wait with hope
and anticipate
The music at my doors
The booming from the a DJ board
The thumping all around
People laughing and not crying
When their friend has left the grounds
I want to see the smiles and celebrate the life
Of a man who lived his life in Smile
and a style all his own
So as the music beats and strums along to the days that we celebrate
My curtain call will be the hall
that we recognize my Beats
This drum has been beaten for the last time today
This drummer boy who beats his drum
To his own special way.
My loves in my life ,please assure me
this ceremony won't be
A sad affair and a typical farewell
but a party dedicated to ME
Not of arrogance in that sense, but
To Me and the good things i loved
To ME and the people i made laugh
To My loves of Baseball and my Teams
My Family, my Wife and Kids
I want this day to emulate the way that i lived
Eat too much, drink too much,dance til it hurts
I even have a request to make
The last song that will make it real
The appropriate song I feel for this day
Thelonious Monster's "Please make sure that my grave is kept clean"
Farewell to my Good life
For a better one awaits us all
My relationship with my Savior
My hidden gem that I selfishly kept to myself
Oh yes i doubted him and he made me mad
but of grandstands I do not play
My personal realtionship with my God
Goes beyond my final day!
